happy independance to a girl i knew !!!!!

you tried…you cried….

U died too often still breathing

You smiled when he smiled

Even with a heavy heart….

You cared…you dared….

You broke ur heart often

Sleepless nights, wet pillow

And still longed his glimpse….

He left….he came…

He left and now forever

U tried….you cried….

U died too often still breathing

Waved him goodbyes…teary eyes

Heartless crap he certainly was

How easy it alz was to him

feelings were seasons to him

he left….u cried…..

u hoped he cud come back

but  how silly of you grl

he didn’t ever deserved you

U tried….you cried….

U died too often still breathing

Free ur heart and let it breathe

Smiles smiles yup u look pretty

Cheer up and  live wild…

Happie indepence to u girl

Set ur self freeeeeeee

U tried….you cried….

U died too often still breathing

You cared…you dared….

You broke ur heart often……

snap -I

just a remainder you still give me butterflies.........

you cud have said it all....

Rainy day and rain drops falling around....

a chilly wind blew fast: trembling my hair....

rain drops when stroked my face & down it dropped....

pit-pat the street was hit still silence gasped me..

he passed by holding her hands...

no doubt love was in the air..

my heart pounding hard & a shedding teardrop...

though smile was still all my way...

walked in the street; strangers passing by...

unusual loneliness grabbed me....

flashing memories & tickling heart...

yes it was all that i carried...

drizzling rain and silent wind...

walking down the lane you and me...

warmth of your hands when i had in mine...

and the depth of love we could feel...

the steps we took down the street...

talking allot and laughing loud...

looking in my eyes when you sang softly...

a lovely feeling i certainly had...

probably you still have the same smile...

and sing those silent songs more softly...

you still joke and talk allot....

though its only with me in memories....

thought we were together forever...

happy and so in love...

but stupid you proved me dear...

tearing me apart and breaking me down...

you lastly abandoned me...

waved you goodbye for happy you were...

in choosing different path than mine...

it wasn't hard at all dear.. definitely not...

you could have said you never loved me....

A winner one day

walking down the lane;shunning those pass by

my afflictive heart bellowed trying to push

push the walls apart;so apart that it could escape from me

for it has always been languished in me

my feeble minds wants me to help it too

exasperated it yells out in pain every time

and all there is left is me shrugged

for i cant decide which one of you to believe

i slumbered loathsomely for i cant withstand it

i cant hear you both shriek in agony

what should i do??dead silence around and

I'm yelling in pain...for I'm mostly shunned

With the dilemma and a voice unclear…

I still continue dragging myself to my destiny…

Far somewhere while on foot down there

I believe an answer loud and lucid will be mine….

Yes it will be mine and smirking to those

Who snubbed me…watch out I will then be

A winner…yes certainly for it’s my faith to win that will

Make me winner that day…

yes a winner who won because I was meant to…

feelings I

scattered were  all hopes and
when failures were all my way
i carried a broken heart with me too
and when lost were all my smiles


i looked around and still looked around
but no where around were you
far.....as far as my visions reached
i longed you: i longed only you


that shoulder i longed which held my head
those hands i wanted which wiped my tears
that smile i wanted whose one glimpse comforted me
that closeness i wanted for it was only i had with me


i know i too have lacked
i have in taking steps towards you completely
but you too broke me down
and added me with pain
a wound i had and you hit me there again


how weak your relation was 
i wonder now and then
for we were beyond friends
much more than two best friends


you werent among those 
who left things misunderstood
if it was so why do you still talk to him
why do you still try your best
just to make sure everything
happens as before....
you tried your best and still are trying


but why isnt that with me??
why aint i as important as he is??


i know i  am not wrong ; i wasnt wrong then
but you needed no time to distrust me
and you moved away not bothering at all
for you know not how perfect now it would be...


i tried explaining it to you
and you hurt me with your words
i tried making things as before
but all in vain though i tried...
i tried saving us but that was worthless...


few years of togetherness and
 we were to close with time
but now  the paths are different
and nothing can be done


you might think i was wrong so did i explain 
and so did i escaped
but no; no dear
it was the time i required you the most
and u were in your own way


whatever life has given me i accept it with ease
i've learnt how to completely walk alone
and i've known how to be wlone 
and i've known how to be alone!!!

shayari - I

suni jindagi mein swor huwe

hulchul jaise kuch mehesus huwe

dil jor se dhadakta huwa mila

kyon ki apki aahetein mehesus huwe!!!

dekh kar aapko khowe huwe hum mile

aaur bechen in aakhon mein nami mehesus huwe

saamne the hum par apne andekha kiya 

toh pal var mein hi chere pe udasi mehesus huwe!!!

aaj phir jab khud ko ajnabi hote huwe dekha 

itne logon ke bich sach mein ajnabi mehesus huwe

kach ki tarha dil toota huwa paya jab

berang jindagi ki maut mehesus huwe !!!!!!

verse - I

looking up at the hook
Up there on my ceiling
With stressful eyes
And choking voice
I keep wondering
how does it take me?
And how would it feel
On my tying knot with it?